As a young pre-teen living in Switzerland
and Canada, I remember vividly feeling a sense of almost unbearable excitement
thinking about how my life would unfold. Now mind you, I had no specific
thought about the exact things that
would happen – this was not an exercise in goal planning – rather, it was a
sense of unadulterated joy about that
which could be, but which was still veiled; not yet clear to me at all. There
was an incredible sense of adventure in it. I felt a literal and physical
vibration in my solar plexus when it happened. The fact that I did not know
what it would be – this unfolding of my life - made absolutely no difference to
those truly sublime feelings that resounded in me like a clarion call to be
awake and aware about that which could be.
These thoughts, feelings, and sensations
continued – on occasion - nearly to adulthood, and then – curiously, as I
discovered in the aftermath - they seemed to disappear from my conscious mind.
I didn’t miss them, because I had apparently simply forgotten about them.
Life went on, much joy, but also great pain
ensued, and finally, when I was in my mid-thirties, I suddenly remembered those
feelings. Where did you go? I asked
myself. And how do I get you back?
Let me tell you right here and now that I
don’t have a fail-proof plan for getting those feelings back, but as I look retrospectively
over my life since the time I realized I had lost the feelings, I can see clearly how mine did come back. Perhaps it can help you shed light on how you
might get yours back – or, if you
have never experienced such feelings, perhaps it might help you discover them.
What I write now comes from having given
the process much thought over the ensuing 30 plus years, and remembering –
again in retrospect – exactly when I would,
occasionally, experience the feelings again. What I believe now is that the
feelings are intertwined with the connection we all have (but do not all sense)
with our inner self. Perhaps, in those pre-teen and teen years, despite my
apparent early onset maturity in thought, I was, in some fashion, still a child
with a child-like connection to the numinous, the divine within. And somewhere,
somehow, in that mix, those feelings arose initially.
Understanding this, or perhaps it is better
to say believing this, later, in
adulthood, I could see that the feelings re-emerged whenever I went back on my path. What is my path? I certainly
didn’t know it then (I may not fully know it now), but I could sense that it
was when I was on that “path”, that those feelings came back. They would never
stay long enough for me to become fully acquainted with them, but they became
more and more familiar as time went by. They would again energize me, fill me
with that sense of adventure I remembered from my teens, although I remember
some dark years in my late forties where it appeared that they had again all
but vanished, and my heart cried out in vain wondering how I could get them
back once again.
After that, however, as I stayed more and
more on a given road in my life, I was greeted more and more often again with
those feelings of adventure, of excitement, and of joy. I cannot reiterate
enough that it was never connected to outer honours, successes, or financial
rewards, but to a knowing that I was walking
my path.
One part of the rediscovery of these
feelings was to try different things and test out how I felt as I did them. As
time went by, I could sense quite clearly which were the ones that connected me
to that feeling and which were not. The adventure I refer to is, of course, not
an outer adventure such as white-water rafting or trekking through the
foothills of the Himalayas, but an adventure of the soul. This creates the
connection and this creates the joy and the sense of adventure and excitement,
almost as if you are able to re-connect with a long-lost and very beloved
friend.
In order to sense what I have written
about, you need some quiet space in your life. Without it, how do you expect to
even notice what is going on inside? Without it, how do you expect to recognize when you are coming closer to
yourself with what you are doing and thinking? Without it, how do you expect to
reconnect to the you that you may have forgotten, or barely even
realize is there?
Giving yourself time to contemplate this
process – and putting it into action - may lead you to a joy you may have never
experienced.
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